Updated: May 14, 2018
People go through mid-life crisis' where they finally get everything they've dreamed of getting in their life. They now got the job, the family, the crazy experiences when they were young. So then they hit a brick wall, now what? That feeling of not having anything to wake up to, that's scary. That thought scares me every time I go to bed. What if I wake up and I just don't care anymore?
On a less depressing note, I just finished watching the film A Futile and Stupid Gesture (2018) which details the story of Doug Kenney's successful career in creating the National Lampoon magazine which led him to create one of the funniest American comedies called Animal House (1978). This movie nailed that fear. The fear of gaining all the success you've ever imagined and being left with the "What now?"
I'm not saying that I've personally reached that point, I feel like I'm right at the crisp of it all. I'm in one of the most beautiful cities in the world: Melbourne. I have an amazing network of friends and an extremely supportive family. I have all the tools I need to create something amazing. I'm just stuck I guess. I feel like I could be doing so much more with my time. When you have nothing to do, you just end up doing nothing at all. I hate being unemployed, I hate being free all the time. But why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this immense pressure to get a job? To have to join the 9 to 6 group of people going to their jobs everyday. To a job they HATE.
See? I want to do what I love and wake up excited. I want to create something that's lacking. Something that would make the world just a little bit better.
I think if I think bigger than myself I could actually create something worthwhile that will get me past this "bump" in the road.
I'm just in a rough patch of a life that is full of endless possibilities. I just need to stop being scared of my potential. I can't be afraid of failure. Doug Kenney in the film was someone I'd call fearless and always pushing the envelope. It just came so easy for him. The problem is after all the success, where does he go from there? He became so wrapped up in the possibility that he could fail, that that's ultimately what he did. I want to take the good and bad from his life and apply it. I want his fearless attitude when coming to starting my career. But I don't want to get scared of the success. If failure or success come, neither matter as long as I tried and put myself out there. That's all one can really do.
I will get past this post grad life crisis eventually. It's all about waiting for the right moment, being in the right place at the right time, wearing a big smile on my face.
Here's a link to the trailer of a Futile and Stupid Gesture:
Captivating film with a great cast!